It's late, I can't sleep, my throat is still swollen from my tonsillectomy and within 20 mins I'm hoping my medication will kick in and knock me out for a few. Here is to hope!
It's been sometime since my last entry. Better late than never. Here it goes.
I'm irritable, withdrawn and overall stressed lately. I
really need to work on these emotions in a timely manner. Time is my enemy. All in a matter of weeks I will be visiting my in-laws for Thanksgiving/Christmas/farewell to Nate. Then it's back home to pack and prepare Nate for his 6 month deployment, throw Liam his 4th Birthday party and drive our bottoms (safely) across the US to MA. There we will spend 6 weeks with my family. Now of course I could stay right here and brave out the entire deployment alone, but I'm a wimp. I'll openly admit it. Whenever I try to way out the pros and cons of this long 36 hour drive with my babies I have to remind myself I am going for the right reasons.
The number 1 reason being my Nana. The woman I love and look up to. The woman who stood by my moms side and helped raise my siblings and I. Lymphoma is trying to take her life and I will not live with myself if choose to not take this trip. I deserve this time with her.

success

So, last night was the first time in over 3 years my husband and I shared a bed with no children. It was nice and awkward all at the same time. I like the family bed. Liam began sleeping with us at birth.  When I was ready for him to move into his crib, Nate deployed for almost a year and I postponed the crib idea. We traveled far too much and sharing a bed was comforting for both of us. Nate returned home when Liam was 14 months old and was all for him sharing a bed with us. Fast forward 3 years later and along come Keira. Liam was over it. He wanted nothing more than to be in his big boy bed.  Once again we had another lil one to share the bed with. Watching her sleep was peaceful. Trying to imagine what she was dreaming, listening in on every giggle and grunt while she slept. However Keira has been very independent since birth. She will sleep anywhere if accompanied by her paci and blanket. She put herself on a sleep schedule from the day she was born. 100% opposite her brother.
Last night we made the decision to move her crib into our room and allow her to sleep on her own. Worked like a charm. She was out within minutes. She slept so much better having room to move and roll around. It made me so sad but I should embrace how easy going she is and her independence. If it's what she wants how could I deny her of that...

In other sad news (or at least it saddens me) I gave Liam a haircut today. Cutting off all his beautiful blonde curls. It was hard! I had to hold back my tears. The moment I started I wanted to stop. He's beautiful no matter what but now people will focus on his face rather then his hair. AND hopefully there will be no more comments about "your daughter".

all those beautiful curls :(

Had and awesome play date with Laura once again and her lil guys. Gave each one of them a haircut as well, in exchange for a new diaper!!! and the addiction continues! 

In the mood for some eggplant parm tonight. Mmmmmm. Maybe I'll post pics later!

My First

I'm currently too tired to go into much detail. A long sleepless night followed by a busy day. Such is life.

I figured a blog would be fun and a good release from my daily hectic mom schedule.

Lets see shall we...